I just kinda chewed out an old man from my church. I feel kinda bad, but, not for the reasons people expect. This guy is a bully. He continually makes little comments tearing down my life. My good friend and I even made him a hashtag, because he so often lectures us. I feel bad that others may view this as me over blowing his comment. I can see that being assumed, but, really, its been a pattern of criticism. He’s not even my friend, so it isn’t accurate to my life.
I’ve been incredibly depressed lately, worse than my normal low spots, and last night I talked to Kev for awhile. I’ve gotten too good at keeping it bottled up and hiding my anxiety. I’m just gonna stop allowing all of it to fester. If someone is continually making me feel bad, I’m gonna say something. My brain is already making me sad, I’m done allowing other people to contribute.
I need this and simultaneously hate it. :-/